Only 90 days to go

This past Monday, after downing a vodka-tonic & a vodka-lemonade, I decided I was going to stop drinking for the next 3 months. It was for vanity reasons, I'll admit. I've noticed that I've gained weight & just generally had a puffy, bloated feeling for some time now. 

I woke up Tuesday with a relatively bad hangover: headache, nausea & feeling faint because I was dehydrated. I spent the day drinking water at work & by 5, I felt back to "normal." That night, no drinks. It wasn't hard to do, given how sick I had felt that morning.

What I didn't realize was how much drinking had insinuated itself into my life.

I woke up Wednesday with my body ready to battle the headache & nausea again. It almost felt like it was there for real, until I reminded myself I hadn't had anything to drink. Then I relaxed. That's also happened the last 2 mornings as well, my body bracing against the expected pain, then relaxing when it hasn't come.

That tells me I've been drinking more than I should have been. My body needs this break. I don't like to throw around the word, "addict," mostly because I've known a few & it's something that some of my family members have struggled with. To say that I'm one seems to trivialize it. I haven't had cravings to drink again, granted it's only been 3 days now, but it's been relatively easy for me. I've seen people that literally couldn't go a full day without a drink or a joint unless they were incarcerated.

In the coming weeks, I may change my mind, of course. I'm still at the start of this, after all. I really didn't think my body would be bracing for a hangover every morning, so that proves I don't have full insight quite yet.

I decided that if I make it to October 30th without drinking, I will buy myself a bottle. Not of alcohol, but perfume. I recently bought a sample of Lyric Woman by Amouage & fell in love with it. It's a smoky, mossy, spicy rose with an incense & cardamom-drenched drydown. It's also $275 for a 50 ml bottle. However, the 100 ml bottle is only $315. It's like they're giving me 50 more mls just for spending $40 more.

On that note, I will wrap this up with a self-portrait I took in my bedroom just now. I have no idea if not drinking is going to have an effect on my looks or not, but I did want to take a picture in case there is one.